&, not and.
As in, thinking about the difference between them. As in, thinking about the way I never write '&' but love the way it looks and enjoy reading it and am disturbed by use of symbols. As in, thinking about the strange way in which the symbol is ancient and latin and contemporary and sometimes hip. As in, I wrote the symbol on my hand after reading it used somewhere not because it meant something or said something but because I wanted to think about it and the ways I use or don't use '&' and have to activly think about it being shift-7.
As in, I'm contemplating '&' which isn't to say there's something there but that I think there might be.